Thursday, March 21, 2013

i carry your heart

Our Women's Chorus theme this semester is "i carry your heart" taken from the poem by e.e. Cummings which you can read by clicking here. For our upcoming concert, we gave this text to a composer to create a never before done piece for us. 
I had loved this poem before this semester, and waited in anticipation to sing such a beautiful love song. 
However, when my conductor started playing the first few chords of the piece- pink and fresh in our hands, I knew instantly that this avant-gaurde piece would not be the classic love poem I had remembered. 
It was heavy 
It was eerie 
but it was still somehow very beautiful.
In an instant, the poem changed. As I sang these dissonant chords and heard the heavy beating of the heart carried through the alto bar, I realized a new meaning of this poem. 
"i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it"
This line is haunting. It has ran through my mind each night before I go to sleep.
Carrying other people's hearts can be heavy at times. When someone you love is burdened down by illness, or temptation, or trial, we often want to take their hearts into our own. I have many hearts nestled in my own and I know how it feels to be "never without it." 
This carrying of one another's hearts and burdens is the true love poem. Christ said that we should "mourn with those that mourn and comfort those in need of comfort." By keeping others written on the fleshy tables of our hearts, I believe we do these things. And yet, it is heavy to carry another's heart at all times, especially if that heart is troubled with burdens. 
But- "Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)"
"And even to your old age I am he; and even to the hoar hairs will i carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you" (Isaiah 46:4).
He is the true "tree of life." He carries my heavy heart even when it holds the weight of the hearts of others. He makes my burdened heart light
In Mosiah 24: 15 it says 
"and now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease"
He carries our hearts.